I don’t know why, but the theme for this year should really be Half-Ass. I honestly don’t even know where to begin with what went wrong today. Ok, yes I do. It all started with not understanding the direction of the lesson plan that my student teacher had set up. I could try to pass the blame, but that is completely my fault. The one thing I told her to always do (test it out) is the one thing I didn’t do. If I had tested the topic out prior to trying to use it as a model for writing, I would have noticed just how ineffective it was going to be. Not only was it ineffective, but it also didn’t work well for teaching writing to the students. The fix for tomorrow is that I am probably going to move on to a completely different idea rather than trying to salvage this writing topic. Oh, and I’m definitely going to to test it out first. 

In reality, I’m just tired. Student behaviors are taking a toll on my mental state. On top of all that testing is next week. The stress is continuing to build. 

However, with all that being said, I’m still optimistic about testing day. It’s only a first run. Everything that I am already noticing as needing attention has been written down to make next year better. I’m also very satisfied with my level of thoughtfulness today. I definitely thought about my reactions and words prior to them leaving my body.